Not much to say with a lot going on

So, tomorrow we start school. Luke's first day of kindergarten and my first day of homeschooling. This year is going to bring on a lot of changes. We have school. Luke is so excited about Kindergarten. We did not get the teacher we wanted but Luke is still excited about going and we are still working on getting that teacher we liked. Also, we have homeschooling that we are trying. I just pray that I do a great job and Mark can learn a lot. In the next year, we also have a new baby arriving. I am still in denial about this whole pregnancy thing, even though I continue to feel horrible most of the time and my belly is growing.
Also, on the new front is buying a house. This past week we signed papers on a new house. We will be building a new house with hopefully all the things we want in a new house. At the same time, we are selling our current house. They only house that we have owned and our first house together. All of these things are so exciting but so scary on the other hand. Most of which I am in denial of.
There is nothing in life that I want/don't want that God doesn't want for me, but I just pray that all of this works out and that our decisions are in His will.

More belly info

So, most people have morning sickness while they are pregnant and most women can not keep food down. I tell you that after having 5 weeks of morning sickness, I would never wish this on my worst enemy. It is like having the stomach flu for 5 weeks. I just hate having time away from my kids and feeling sick all the time. The bad part is, I just don't throw up. I will gag or dry heave but I will not throw up. It almost makes it worse. I think that if I threw up that I would at least feel better for a little while. I have already gained weight and I am definately showing. I am sure people who would just love to be pregnant would hate me saying these things, but it is just time to stop, complain and move on. I just can't stand the way that I look or feel. Although, at the same time, I know that there is a plan. Though there are some days that I don't know how I can possibly mother four kids, I know that God has a plan and I just rest in that. God wants this child and I know that I will love this child more than ever, but when you feel so horrible, it is hard to be so excited.
Secretly, I never have felt like I was done being pregnant or having kids. I really thought though that I would probably adopt again rather than have more kids because of difficult pregnancies. Speaking of which, until I went to the doctor this week, I was really scared to be pregnant again because of my past. Although, even though my doctor recommended me not having more kids, she is pretty sure that I will do fine. I am able to still run and I am hoping that will allow me to have a better pregnancy, along with God's protection.
I am unsure as to what the next couple of months entail, but I know that I rest in God and wait for His blessing.

Life of a swimmer

Mark and Luke are on a swim team. They are both doing incredible. The swim team practices every day but we go about 3 times a week, with two team meets a week. Mark is on the 7-8 boys part of the team and Luke is 6 and under. There are 150 swimmers from 4-18 on the team. I love that most swimmers get a ribbon for each meet and the ages are divided well for practice and meets. Mark has received three first place ribbons. They both are exceeding and improving all of the time. They love the practices and the meets. The coaches are wonderful and do a great job. We go to practice first thing in the morning and some meets end at 10 pm. Makes for a long day but we love it. I am so glad that all three of my kids are swimmers and they just love the water.

Update

For a quick update...I am 9 weeks pregnant which will put me to deliver the first of January. I have had the worst morning sickness for the past 5 weeks. I thought that I would start to blog more but with feeling so sick and so tired, all I want to do is rest rather than blog and check Facebook. Anyway, I went to the doctor yesterday and was able to see the heartbeat and know that all is well. Mark went with me and in our two hour time together, we got to hang out just the two of us, read a book and he got to see all the joys of being pregnant. Mark and Luke are so excited to be a big brother again and they both want a brother this time. I just want to feel better. Not too much to post on. Next, I want to write about swim team for the boys...perhaps tomorrow.

A Year of Learning

This year has been difficult. Thus there has been a gap in my writing on my blog (also due to reading too many books). Although, now that some of the trials are behind me, I can look back and see how much growth that I have had because of it. Praise God for unanswered prayers and for hardships in our life so that we can grow.
I have never experienced such meanness in our world. Grown ups acting like children. Though, through a recent bible study I have learned that just because someone is the age of an adult, it doesn't make them an adult. I have had people question my son's clothes (wearing basketball shorts), people not talk to me, ignore me, laugh at me and talk behind my back. My husband has helped me learn "so what." I used to care what people thought and would get discouraged when someone didn't like me. Well, I am to the point of not caring and being able to say "so what."
My son and I have both experienced bullying. Me from adults and Mark from kids and adults. The school experience that we have had this year has not been the best either. Although, once again growth and lessons for the both of us and so glad that it is coming to an end.

What is go come: we have a baby on the way. I am going to be homeschooling Mark for second grade and Luke will be going to school for Kindergarten. Rebecca is at home with me as well but she has been asking about school, so when she is three, I will look into it. All three kids are on swimming; the boys on a swim team. Rob will be 40 this year and is looking for change (but not with the family). I am very encouraged by things to come, though it is not our will, but the will of God and I would rather have that any day.

Mother's Day

The day before Mother's Day I went to the store and bought a pregnancy test. I had actually taken one previous during the week that was negative but I wanted to make sure since I was having so many symptoms pointing to positive. I took the test when I got home. Rob and I were not really "worried" that it was positive and were joking around about it. Then came the words "Pregnant!" Holy Cow! This changed our day and our lives. We couldn't believe it. Even four days later we are still trying to wrap our brains around the idea of having FOUR kids. I had never even imagined three until a few years ago and now FOUR!
Though this is a big surprise, it is a God's blessing. We can plan all we want and decide where we want to live and how many children we want to have and who we want to marry, but it is God who decides our journey. Though I do not feel well and it is a very big surprise, I welcome God's blessing with open arms. I know this child will be an added addition to our family, no matter who or what they are. Thank you God for this blessing and for this time in my life. "For I know the plans that I have for you says the LORD..."

Forever Family Day

Tomorrow is our Forever Family Day. It has been one year since we brought Rebecca home. I have goosebumps all over getting so excited that we have been together for an entire year. Tomorrow we are going to celebrate. Pancakes for breakfast. Time with BG. I will make Korean food for dinner and today Luke and I made a fancy cake for us to have as a family. I love being a family of five. Even though Mark and Luke are asking for a brother, I am counting my blessings and just feeling so blessed to be together knowing that we waited for this for so long. Rebecca is such a special and wonderful addition to our family. I love that sweet little girl so much as do I love my boys.